40 Days of Lent: Day 9

1Now there was a man of the Pharisees named Nicodemus, a member of the Jewish ruling council. 2He came to Jesus at night and said, “Rabbi, we know you are a teacher who has come from God. For no one could perform the miraculous signs you are doing if God were not with him.”

3In reply Jesus declared, “I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again.”

4″How can a man be born when he is old?” Nicodemus asked. “Surely he cannot enter a second time into his mother’s womb to be born!”

5Jesus answered, “I tell you the truth, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit. 6Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. 7You should not be surprised at my saying, ‘You must be born again.’ 8The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.”

What was it, I must ask, that caused Nicodemus to take a chance with his reputation and status by daring to go by himself to visit with the itinerant rabbi, Jesus? What did Jesus have that Nicodemus wanted?

There was an authenticity about Jesus- Nicodemus said it was obvious that he was from God, with God. When Jesus said that this came from being born again, Nicodemus (as would anyone) misunderstood. Nicodemus knew of only one way of being born, while Jesus was telling him about another.

Many of us think we know what born again means, but I know how traditions and unexamined “truths” can get in the way of real understanding, so I wonder, too, if we don’t sometimes misunderstand that phrase as badly as Nicodemus did upon first hearing it?

In some churches it means saying a prayer, in others it comes from walking down the aisle in response to an emotional message by the preacher. In still others it means performing ancient rituals- baptism, cathecism, confirmation. The commonality of all those methods is that a person publicly declares Jesus to be “the way, the truth, and the life,” repent of his/her sin and, thus, become a child of God, and not only a child of human parentage.

That has always seemed too superficial to me..sorry. Birth is a traumatic process and I think really becoming a child of God- becoming real, becoming authentic- is a process. It’s a process of enlightenment- step by step, little steps, big steps, a journey that never ends. I often say that I have been born again and again and again; I am not the same follower of Jesus as I was that first day I believed. In fact, it is more like I am continually being born- I am always moving from belief to faith, from knowledge to understanding, from moments of happiness to longer periods of serenity.

And I do that by getting better- more sensitive- to that blowing wind Jesus referred to: the ruach of God. Ruach is God’s spirit, God’s breath, God’s wind. And we don’t know where we will be moved by it. It may be toward a sunset, or a lifetime of sacrificial work on behalf of others. It may be toward a special sermon (it’s possible!).  More likely, it will be toward the eyes, the presence of one in whom we can see God’s presence already, or in deeper ways than we have so far perceived God’s presence in ourselves. It might even be in the love of a dog, the breath taking of a wildflower field, or the singing of children.

The point is we don’t know how that wind will blow or where it will come from, which makes every moment the most important one we have ever lived. Because this might be the moment when we become authentic, real, whole, complete, and born again, like Jesus.

40 Days of Lent: Day 8

Mark 1:14-15- After John was arrested, Jesus went to Galilee preaching the Message of God: “Time’s up! God’s kingdom is here. Change your life and believe the Message.”

Jesus, apparently, hit the ground running. And that’s what I think it is imperative for any human to see. Jesus may or may not have known, probably did, the repercussions of the message he had to tell. It was a message that would allow the people who heard it to “go around” the high priests on their way to interaction with God. And that was guaranteed trouble. Thus, I believe Jesus felt a sense of urgency about his mission.

And he acted on that sense of urgency! That what separates some of us from the rest of us: acting on that which we know needs to be done. It is easy to delude ourselves, no matter how important we may sense our mission is, to believe that there is always another day, or that we need to plan more, or that it’s just not the right time yet.

Jesus could have laid low and bought himself at least another couple of years. He could have done a better job of planning, and left behind more than just a few disciples whose names we remember. Or he could have left the Roman Empire to rot a little longer from within, or watched the priests begin to topple under the weight of their own power.

But he did none of those things. “Time’s up! God’s Kingdom is here!”

His life was lived in a way not unlike that of the artist who feels compelled to tell in paint or words or music the truths that he or she perceives. The artist knows that no one else can tell that particular truth and, despite the fact that they will never be able to execute it in exactly the way they would like to, proceeds to begin anyway. “The work of art which I do not make, none other will ever make it.” (Simone Weil, French essayist and member of the Resistance)

Perhaps the greatest thing I can sacrificially give up during Lent, is the misbegotten delusion I share with most other humans, that I have all the time in the world. Perhaps one of the great things we miss in studying Jesus is that he lived urgently- in the knowledge that all things do come to an end.

40 Days of Lent: Day 7

Mark 1: 12, 13- “At once, this same Spirit pushed Jesus out into the wild. For forty wilderness days and nights he was tested by Satan. Wild animals were his companions, and angels took care of him.”

Just after the baptism of Jesus by John, this is what happened, according to Mark. We fill in the story with what Matthew and Luke would later write, but- as a gospel standing alone- what are we to make of Mark’s comments here?

It is theorized that the gospel of Mark is collection of spoken stories- maybe spoken by Peter, maybe not- that were collected and written down. The gospel has the feel of an urgent, spoken message. (Try it out loud sometime in a loud stage whisper, as if you were speaking it to a small group and didn’t want to be overheard by others- you’ll what I mean) The sentences are short, and to the point, and written originally in the most basic Greek.

It must be assumed, therefore, that the audience of either Mark or the original speaker, had some shared knowledge of this Satan.  In the book of Job, a character named Sa-tan, is an accuser, a prosecutor and provocateur, given reign by God to prove Job’s righteousness. The Satan of Mark’s gospel was probably being referred to in a similar role. The wilderness was a test for Jesus, in other words, which he had to pass.

Other scriptures seem to link Satan and the devil. Traditions within the church have cemented the relationship. In many churches, Satan (or the devil) will have equal billing with God in terms of words expended. I can only conclude that the reasons for that is that, for some, fear is a stronger motivator than love.

But Mark’s gospel doesn’t afford us much wiggle room for surmising or guessing. We only know that Satan forced Jesus to the wilderness, where he was tested, and taken care of by angels. That leaves a lot of room for the reader to fill in the white spaces with their own imagination.

Thus, the cults of Satan-fear and of angel-worship within the church are able to emerge, particularly as the original meanings and understandings of those words are lost in the mists of ancient memory. We have the ability to project our own personalities or emotional baggage onto either concept, and twist both ideas into whatever modern definitions we want them to be. It is easy for many to even compare themselves to Jesus by claiming to be harassed and tested themselves by Satan, or protected by a personal set of angels.

Oh, my.

I don’t claim to know all of what Mark meant when he was using those power-packed words. But I do know that when I make them into words for my own personal use, I can absolve myself of many responsibilities, or claim a special status in the eyes (do they have them?) of angels. If Jesus was human, and he was- that’s the point, then what he would have experienced in the wilderness would have been no less or more than any other human would have experienced there. He would have experienced hunger, loneliness, fear, and doubt. Like I would have, like anyone would have. If he didn’t- if he experienced anything in a supernatural way of any sort- then he wouldn’t have been relating to the experience as a human. He couldn’t have been followed, heard, or been a real brother to other humans.

But he was able to move through all of those difficult experiences, as a human. And prove, by doing so, that any of us can do the same.

40 Days of Lent: Day 6

Mark 1: 9-11 (from The Message): At this time, Jesus came from Nazareth in Galilee and was baptized by John in the Jordan. The moment he came out of the water, he saw the sky split open and God’s Spirit, looking like a dove, come down on him. Along with the Spirit, a voice: “You are my Son, chosen and marked by my love, pride of my life.”

The gospel writers, Mark among them, are not reporters. They were not there- on the scene- during every event that they go on to write about. They were compilers, arrangers, transmitters of the stories of Jesus to particular audiences.

Mark is relating here some things that apparently only Jesus experienced at his baptism: a  vision (the sky splitting open and something “like a dove” descending on him) and a voice. This testimony of Jesus is the beginning of Mark’s gospel of Jesus. This is, for Mark, the beginning of Jesus’ “Sonship.” It was- it seems- a bestowal of status on Jesus by God.

Matthew and Luke would claim that Sonship to be biological- with the impregnation of Mary through God’s Holy Spirit. I have to wonder why such a significant event was not even mentioned by Mark, while the personal testimony of Jesus was. Had Mark not heard the story of Jesus’ in utero origins? Or had he heard it and rejected as a legend connected to other ancient stories of virgin births?

I don’t know the answer. But I see Mark’s editorial role here as making Sonship itself accessible to anyone who would, as Jesus had, accept the message of John the Baptist to “Repent!” Here’s the Baptist’s message, told by Mark (Mark 1: 4, New International Version): And so John came, baptizing in the desert region and preaching a baptism of repentance for the forgiveness of sins. The whole Judean countryside and all the people of Jerusalem went out to him. Confessing their sins, they were baptized by him in the Jordan River.

The arrival of Jesus at the Jordan River had been being anticipated by John. Something about his third cousin had impressed John, maybe for much of his life (he was six months older than Jesus). John claimed that Jesus was greater than himself and would baptize others not with water, but with the Holy Spirit.  If Jesus believed this of himself as well, then he would have had need of that Holy Spirit to baptize others with, and would have been highly sensitive and receptive to the receiving of it.

I think this is the supremely important part of the story of which Mark wrote: Jesus was ready for this status; he was willing and wanting to receive it. As he would go on in his life and ministry to prove, it was not a matter of satisfying a ravenous ego that he sought this status; rather, it was a genuine calling- a desire that others would know the real nature of God. Jesus wanted, it seems to me, for others to know that they, too, were loved by God, and that God had pride in them, too!

That’s a pretty radical desire to have within a faith community that was rife with judgement on the part of the priestly leaders. It’s a revolutionary role to want to assume in a culture where the “poor in spirits” were left out of everything.

But, after his baptism by John, Jesus left the Jordan River community, went into the wilderness for 40 days, emerged at one with God, and went on to demonstrate that others could indeed live in the love and pride of God, free of the burdens of guilt, and also at one with God.

That was impressive to Mark.

It’s impressive to me, too.

40 Days of Lent: Day 5

Mark 1: 9-11 (from The Message): At this time, Jesus came from Nazareth in Galilee and was baptized by John in the Jordan. The moment he came out of the water, he saw the sky split open and God’s Spirit, looking like a dove, come down on him. Along with the Spirit, a voice: “You are my Son, chosen and marked by my love, pride of my life.”

12-13 At once, this same Spirit pushed Jesus out into the wild. For forty wilderness days and nights he was tested by Satan. Wild animals were his companions, and angels took care of him.

14-15 After John was arrested, Jesus went to Galilee preaching the Message of God: “Time’s up! God’s kingdom is here. Change your life and believe the Message.”

At this point in the traditional Lenten season, many persons are demonstrating their faith in Jesus by “suffering” through some sacrificial, outward and visible, action. They’ve given up a favorite food, are walking the stairs instead of using the elevator, or even- in some cultures- hurting themselves, with pebbles in their shoes or some other such nonsense.

I think the real point of the episode above is not the suffering and sacrifice of Jesus that his followers are trying to emulate; I think it’s the wilderness.

The wilderness of Jesus’ day was..where? I don’t know and neither does anyone else. We only know it was far enough outside of town for there to be wild animals nearby, which- given the time and place- didn’t have to be very far out of town at all. It was, we can also surmise, a place where Jesus was able to be alone. And that, for any human living in community, is wilderness.

We have a hard time being alone. Even someone who never leaves their apartment is dependent upon and, thus, actively involved with the water department, the electric company, and the digital community of television and the Internet, along with an army of farmers, ranchers, food processors, truckers, and merchants. It’s very hard to be alone.

But, I believe the story of Jesus Alone shows that it is vital. For almost a million years, humans were dependent on the wilderness for their needs- all of them. There were no back up plans possible when wild onions were scarce or when a protein-laden rabbit failed to be killed. And no one to say “Help!” to either.

It was during those million years that Jesus’ and our DNA, our genetics, and the shapes of our bodies were forming. As products of our ancestors and their environment, everything about us has evolved for a purpose, and it is necessary (however difficult) to become reacquainted with the realities of ourselves, our bodies, our being.

It is necessary to become aware (again or even for the first time), of our dependence on God (however that loaded word is defined by each of us).

None of us who are writing or reading these words on line is prepared to do that for 40 days. But every one of us can find a place, maybe this day, certainly this week, to be by ourselves for a time beyond our self-identified capacity to do so. No bench, no iPod, no phone, no water bottle, no munchies, and- preferably- no human noise or presence within our hearing or seeing: that’s the challenge. If you think you can do that for 15 minutes, make sure you do it for 30 minutes. If you think “A whole day- no problem!” then stay for two. The point is to blur the boundaries of ourselves with whatever the wilderness is that we are in.

The point is to begin to realize that we are not alone! Ever! A hundred thousand generations of others’ lives are pulsing within us, every nuance of our bodies is striving to keep us alive, and there is that voice on the wind, in the trees, across the grass, that seems to also be trying to tell us something.

Hear it?

Put pebbles in your shoes, if you wish. That’s the easy way. Or just be quiet, and listen. That’s the Jesus way, the wilderness way.

(More on this same passage each day this week.)